I haven’t written in such a long time because I just wasn’t sure how to put together the words to describe everything I’ve been going through.
Christmas was wonderful — and then I had a birthday.
I did my typical birthday party thing — dinner with the girls and then out to some bars/clubs where the guys meet up with us. Then I was blindsided by an incident that almost caused the end of my relationship with J.
Needless to say, writing was the last thing on my mind. I needed to sort through the jungle of emotions in my mind & heart. First and foremost, I needed to figure out if the relationship I had with J was healthy, if it was repairable, or if I even wanted it anymore.
Last week, we decided that it was something we could work through. Our conversation brought some closure to some issues and awareness that we still had a lot of issues to fix. Nothing too major — just things to work on. And we determined that both of us, still want the same thing.
After all that, school started again and I find myself tackling a full-time course load, working full-time, and trying to find some time for me in all of that. Oh — and I’m moving at the end of the month (Lord willing). So it’s a busy time, but a good busy time. I’m not stressed — for the first time in ages even though I have more on my plate.
I’m starting my dance classes again and I’m hitting the gym hard core yet again. (The Arnold Classic is about a month away!)
So if you pray — keep me in your prayers. If you don’t, at least send some good vibes my way. I could use them.