let me be honest for a minute
Something terrible happened.
Someone dear to me was violated. For some reason, she didn’t tell anyone but me and her sisters. What troubles me is that none of us told her to go to the police. None of us told her to go to the hospital. All we did was listen.
Inside, though I know it wasn’t purposeful, we slightly blamed her. For putting herself in the position. For not going home but going someplace she had never been, with a guy she had just met, and drinking much more than she could handle while she was there.
She confronted him later. He apologized profusely. And while she doesn’t really buy his excuses, she decided that she’d just let it go.
She decided to just let it go because she believes that maybe, he really isn’t that type of person. She decided to just let it go because he has a child that he adores. She decided to just let it go because she didn’t want to ruin the life of someone who seemed so intelligent.
Sometimes, I think women care too much about the things they shouldn’t and not enough about themselves.
men suck
The past few days have gone something like this:
Monday: Call. Leave message. Wait for return phone call.
Tuesday: Call again. Leave message. Wait for return phone call.
Wednesday: Call. Leave message asking why previous messages haven’t resulted in a return phone call. Wait for return phone call.
Wednesday afternoon: Call. Leave message relaying that whatever it is, it’s not my fault and that I still care sorta, so he better call back before that changes.
He calls. Leaves message that says “I’m sorry” a total of three times. Turns out that he had a couple of friends and a business client that were complete a**holes and put him in a bad mood.
So why do men wait for you to be almost angry before calling back?
oh my, i’m so freaking smart!
I just figured out how to import all of my old blogger posts over here. Yep, I’m brilliant. Ok, maybe not so brillant, but given that my computer died and I have do do all of my blogging activity at work or on the weekends when my roommate is working so I can use her PC, it was a milestone moment for me.
You just don’t know how excited I am to have all of my stuff finally in one place.
taking a vacation for me…
I tried to go see a friend in Baltimore. I knew that he’d probably flake out on me. So I guess I shouldn’t be disappointed. It took only 3 days before I knew this trip was not going to happen. He suddenly dropped off the planet. But it’s okay — because there’s a reason why I fly on Southwest. FLEXIBILITY.
I went online today and changed my flight to Philadelphia. AHA! I have a friend who is gonig to pick up my hotel room tab. And I get to meet someone very kind that I’ve only known on the blogosphere, and he seems normal. *gasp* Yep, I’m definitely excited.
I picked Philly because I knew even if people stood me up, I’d be able to have fun and get along quite well while I was there. This city requires no tour guide. Plus I’ve been there before.
I can’t help but say that I am disappointed. I’m a little sad. I thought I was going to explore a new city and spend a little more time with someone who I thought was absolutely amazing but just a flake. Turns out, he’s not really all that amazing, he’s just a flake. And it’s okay, you live and you learn. You become a little wiser about things. You purchase tickets that are refundable or can be changed. Of course, I invited him to come visit me when I’m in Philly (I think it’s about a 2 hour drive away from him). He probably won’t but I put it out there…afterall, I’m forgiving sometimes.
another one bites the dust…
My laptop bit the dust recently so I haven’t had time to look at anything online. If I weren’t so antisocial, I’d be heartbroken. Instead, I’ve had a genuine reason to ignore people, it just doesn’t help when you’re job searching. But I have a little time to explore all those thoughts in my head while Gateway takes their sweet pathetic time repairing my laptop. *sigh*
The past few weeks have been crazy. I’ve thought about deleting every single number in my phone and starting all over. Just letting people go without warning and figured if they eventually called me, maybe they’d be worth talking to. However, my common sense got the better of me and I left my phone intact, I just turned it off and had a long weekend of “me time.”
My job has me a little stressed out and I’m looking forward to the day where I no longer have a job, but I go to work and it’s something I do because I want to and enjoy it and not because the bills have to be paid. I seriously want that whole bill paying reason to be secondary on my list.
Oddly enough, Mr. Man may have been having some thoughts about me moving down there to Florida. I just don’t think I can make the move. I mean, it’s hot, humid, and there’s bugs. Ok…I’m stalling. I know it. I need to get my *ish together.
All in all, nothing all that exciting is happening. I’m going to VA (well, the greater DC area) to visit a friend of mine in three weeks. It’s kind of funny because I cannot believe I actually just bought the plane ticket to go. He has a bad track record and tends to drop off the face of the earth just when you begin planning a trip. I’m crossing my fingers this time. Hoping that maybe a miracle will happen. (Just in case though, I bought my tickets through Southwest, so at least I can cancel and use the funds for another flight later…)
Hope everyone is enjoying their week so far. I’ll try to write more…but I make no promises. I’m human, not a blog writing machine.
