I only needed a break from my blog because I wanted to wallow in self-pity.
I’m done wallowing now. In fact, I’m in sunny, hot & humid Florida and enjoying myself.
This is my first time in Florida since my eX and I broke up. And even though I found myself getting oddly sentimental at the airport, God found a way to insert some comic relief so I didn’t dwell on that much. There’s something about a six foot something white guy with dreads that hang all the way down to his knees that makes you laugh & smile.
It’s been great here though. I’ve had a lot of “free” time to explore Orlando “my way.” The boyfriend is actually here for a work conference and I’ve been lounging at the hotel…and the hotel is freaking amazing. There’s a mall right across the street that I walked to today. (I was only outside for about 5 minutes before deciding that I was wearing way too many clothes.) All in all — absolutely wonderful.
Oh and my checkbook is not overdrawn (something that could’ve happened) and I get paid tomorrow!!!
I realized that self-pity is not a place I want to actually visit all that often. School was stressing me the f*ck out…and Thanksgiving brought up some feelings I thought I had long dealt with. Through it all, I realized that I have the greatest boyfriend in the world. I know, every girl says that. I just can’t remember the last man that let me just lay in bed and cry and didn’t act like I was overreacting about stuff besides my grandpa.
Although I just became aware of it all, I have a LOT to be thankful for this year. It’s better to realize it now, than later, right?
not much anymore…
I don’t write much anymore. I think it’s because all of the things flowing through my mind right now, are just not blog appropriate. They are things that only my closest friends should know — and quite honestly, only 2 of them even bother with my blog. So I’ve taken to writing emails, and when I become less emotional. I’ll be back.
Can’t say when that will be. But it’ll be soon — hopefully.
