I remember when I first started this blog and at the time — as the url suggests, I was quite the unforgiving bitch. I have chronicled every emotion that I have ever experienced since 2005 here (and I was blogging long before that as well). And over the years, as I have grown, I have learned much about myself and forgiveness.
My last relationship and subsequent breakup was a real awakening for me as to who I am and where I have come from. I saw glimpses of my former self in others (that needless to say, I did not much care for), but they proved to be the small assurances that I needed to prove that I am moving in the right direction. I allowed myself to be in love, to fight for love, and to let go of unhealthy love.
During the breakup, I was reminded that anger is still a poison that can consume you if you let it, that there is nothing without communication, and that I am nothing without God. I was comforted by the presence of my best friends — who prayed for me, who fought for me, and inspired me.
After the breakup, I have learned what many have found to be true — you cannot remain friends with your ex. I was bound to him in a different way — and those soul ties needed to be broken. Once broken, I found overwhelming joy and incredible peace. I have forgiven him and myself for the many things that we did to each other from places that were not out of love. I have learned what I was there to learn.
This blog has been a place of learning and healing for me — but it is time that I transition out of this place because it is no longer healthy. So with love in my heart, I am leaving this blog behind — and I finally did start truly forgiving and living freely.